Monday 27 January 2014

It.

Written a while back, I think new years eve perhaps. For readers that are not close friends my Soldier has left me, he decided he'd be happier not to be in the relationship. Hence the rename, I do feel like a lost soul and I think I will for a very long time, but day by day it will get easier right? 


Love has such power over those who feel it
Love can make strong or break those that show it
Love only exists for those who believe in it
Love can destroy those who rely on it
Lov can hold up, keep safe those that protect it
Love doesn't need to be wanted to give it
Love is what love is and all of us deserve it 

Saturday 25 January 2014

It's just a game

Life falling just like rain
Broken hearts, feeling pain
Storm rumbling in the sky
It all feels like one big lie
If we get what we deserve
I can't see my learning curve
More like someone couldn't see
How much that Man means to me
I don't think Karma's the one to blame
Its just a part of life's chance game. 


Wednesday 15 January 2014

What happens?

What happens when you just don't know
How make the bad feelings go
What happens when you can't work out
Whether to smile or to scream and shout
What happens when memories wont disapear
And remind you of all the things you fear
What happens when the one you need
Is the one who's made you bleed?



Tuesday 7 January 2014

Let me tell you a story, Kyle Boyd

This is a poem by a friend of mine. He has given me permision to put it on here. I don't know the meaning behind it but feel free to comment and I will get hos replies. 


Let me tell you a story

By Kyle Boyd



Let me tell you a story, about Heaven and about Hell

First though, know this: Jesus loves me and He loves you as well

 

“I am three-and-three-quarters”, I proudly exclaim

To the kind-looking gentleman, who asked me my age

 

He’s my mummy’s new friend, and they both love to share

They share kisses and cuddles, and he plays with her hair

 

I have loads of friends, like my mummy does, too

But mummy’s friends kiss her, that’s not what mine do

 

Her friend knows I love sweeties; I’m too young to know bribes

So indeed I indulged, as I watched them imbibe

 

Mummy smelled some white sand and couldn’t hold up her head

But just like Prince Charming, her friend took her to bed

 

Said he’d take care of me, too; and would help me prepare

For a special kind of love, and I need not be scared

 

I learned love can be hidden, and with a warm, calm resolve

He reached inside me to find it, but instead took my soul

 

“I’m twenty-fucking-five”, I bark with disgust

To the posh twat who thinks I’m forty, who I met on the bus

 

I only asked him for a drink, coz the dole didn’t pay

“Don’t effin’ flatter yourself, mate. You ain’t my type, anyway”

 

Loads of people love me, not just when I’m on my back

Kisses are overrated anyway, kisses don’t pay for smack

 

They know how much I need it, and desperation has no bounds

So indeed they indulge; I do my shift on the ground

 

I remember once, I did care, about what they thought

I tried to love, but what can I do? I’m just a filthy fucking whore

 

Of course, one day, my life gave up; though God, He knew me true

Now I can be free of all my wrongs, but this story is for you

 

We were blessed with choice, though choice can lead us stray

That little girl wanted to love, but sin took her away

 

If nothing else, then understand, that we are not to judge

Sometimes we’re wrong, so why not set, our default mode to ‘love’?

Friday 3 January 2014

Unsure

Needing comfort more than ever but cannot turn to you
Life falling around me but I don't know what to do
Small things matter when big things go wrong
Turns out Ive relied on your stregnth for too long
Feelings left on egde and emotions still unsure
What happens if I cannot cope with anymore
Bad things happen and our stories must go on
Even if the life you knew is well and truely gone