Conflict

Been struggling with inspiration recently so haven't written anything that's worth a post. However I am a little bit down at the moment, just hormones going nuts I think, but anyways I wrote this to clear my head. Hope you like it. 

Conflict

Put your trust in someone again,
Hope they never cause you pain.
Never learn from your mistakes,
Who's to blame when your heart aches?

This time, I know, it will be fine
We agreed he's always been mine
And I his, it's not one way
All relationships are grey.

How can you fall for it again,
You know it'll be just the same
Weeks down the line, maybe more
You'll be walking out the door.

Maybe so, but its worth a try
Even if he makes me cry
Why can't everybody just see
That I love him, and he loves me.

To the tune of Pink.

This is a continuation of the song Pink, Just Give Me a Reason. I was listening to it on my phone one day and it was the last one on my playlist so when the song stopped it was quiet, I just kinda carried on with my own lyrics. At the time they didn't mean much to me and I didn't blog them but now I think I would like to. 
Imagine the tune if you can;

Used to hold me close night

Make love in the morning light

Now I sleep alone in bed

But you still go around my head.

I think of how we fell apart

Wonder who's the broken heart

Are you also stuck at home

Feeling like you're all alone?

Memories we made, so strong

Been together for so long

Do the feel the same as me,

Or have I really set you free?

Words are Easier when Written

So this was written a few nights ago during a a very emotional night. I am not feeling like it anymore but hand wrote it and haven't had time to type it out and post. It is based on a book I am reading by Jodi Picoult and the picture at the bottom is one I drew before writing it.  

Stomach knotted, head a mess
So much I have to confess
He is the one, so how's it fair
That he finds it hard to even care.
I know it;s over, that's what right
But I won't go without a fight.
Maybe a week, maybe more
I will find him at my door,
Autumn may pass, winter may fall
And I will wait for his call.
Found it difficult to express
What I thought was for the best,
Now, pen to paper it's easy to say
How I feel in a rhyming way.

Bed Space

Short and sweet tonight. Been so busy at this summer job but tonight I'm emotional so needed to write. I think a few Russian EF students are following my blog, hi if you are, I hope you got home safely. The poem tonight is very short but reflects my mood.

The space next to me is empty and cold

I don't like sleeping on my own 

When you are missing from my bed

I wonder where you sleep instead. 

Together at night is how it should be

With your arms wrapped around me

Legs entwined, head on chest

This is how I always sleep best. 

Untitled??

Been at my summer job since Thursday, all is going well :) I will post some pics soon and I'm sure some summery poems. Not in a sad mood tonight but was feeling creative also wrote this in my journal and thought I would post it. I don't know what to call this one, any suggestions welcome :) 

Untitled???

I write out texts but don't click send

Waiting for you drives round the bend

The days are long without you there

And it feels like you just don't care

Your job leaves you wiped by six p.m

But my day only finishes then

Distance grows as days go on

The longer I wait the more goes wrong

Counting down until every weekend

Our relationship uses these to mend

We tall and cuddle, shout a bit

When we're together my world is lit

I use the hours we get to share

To remind myself you really do care

Although it gets harder to say goodbye

It does get easier not to cry.